Life Change!

So I’ve been thinking of how much everything will change…

It is crazy to think of what will happen in a month!  I am not scared of graduating or getting out into the “real world.”  But what is ridiculous is that in a month, my life will completely change.  I do not know what to expect.  I have the life of an average college student right now - I go to class, go to work, do homework and hang out with my friends when I get the chance.  I have an apartment with two roommates, and I’m broke like everyone else.  I am no different than every other college student.  But, what happens when I am no longer a college student?

In less than one month, I graduate college.  I will be leaving Emporia State - a place I feel like I just stepped foot on yesterday.  After 18 years of education, I won’t be in a classroom anymore.  After three years in the same apartment here in Emporia, I will be moving out.  I am 22 years old and leaving my average college life to be a grown-up.  It’s not that I’m scared…it’s that I just don’t want to.  But on the other hand, I do.  It is liberating to know that all I have to do everyday is go to work.  No more homework, no more 8 a.m. class, no more balancing homework, work and a social life.  Sometimes, though, I think that what I am about to do will be way more work!  I will be graduating college, making the transition to a “professional” career that I do not have yet, moving to Wichita to an apartment I do not have yet and what will I be doing with my life come June 1?  I don’t know that either.

In everything I’ve ever done, I always knew what was coming next.  I knew in 3rd grade that next year, I’d be in 4th grade.  I knew when I graduated high school that I was going to college.  I knew my summer job for the longest time consisted of mowing lots of grass, and that I would start the day school got out.  But, what happens when I graduate college?  I don’t know and it’s pretty discomforting. 

I know I am just rambling, but it’s a crazy feeling.  I know I’ll probably get a good job and I’ll probably do alright.  I am confident in what I know and what I know I can do.  Emporia State has prepared me well for that.  I just wish I could make employers recognize that.  I need an interview first.  But, I need to find a place that is hiring before that.  Which means I need to get busy with that job search…the count down is on!